post-eXams

exams are overrrr!

finally..the killer sem has come to an end.

>>after 5 subjects, 3 research projects, a assignment i nearly argued (..or pleaded) with the tutor to not flunk me, drama, misunderstandings, tension, confusion, deadlines, oral defenses, psych colloquim AND exams---i'm FWEEEEEE!!!!<<

i had nitemares about biopsych last night. cant believe the no. of times i woke up dreaming bout the exam paper. thot i was al ready for the damn exam. entered the hall, flipped the paper and nearly dropped off the chair!

the labelling was from pre mid term topics. like WTH?! how m i supposed to know that it was gonna come out when the freakin exam was supposed to be non-cummulative?

lost almost approx. 15 marks there, and thats just all the stuff i x know, what about stuff i 'think' i know but is actually wrong?

haiz!

reached home and it feels odd not to have sumthin to do. kinda wish i had sumthin to look forward to. with all the strikes goin on. my mom x let me even go out!
i neeeeeeeeeeeddddddd a plann!
anyone free?
buzz me! *winks*

silly me

after exactly a month, im finally blogging again.
its been a heck of crazy month! experiments, deadlines, assignments and my cute bosnian classmate (i can practically see my fwenz rollin their eyes! :p) -oh he's verry cute. *dreamy-eyed*.
neway, i'm feeling really tired and sleepy these days till i cant even wake up to miss calls in the middle of the night (thats sayin sumthin!) n my comp acts up exactly when i want to finish up assignments! sheesh! its like my computer deliberately is trying to cause me problems. as if i x have enuff d. haizzz!!
tom im goin shoppin- finally sumthin to look forward to. ann, mich, yuv and me. girls day out, shoppin and food. what could be betta?

notice that this post is so jumbled and doesnt make sense. i x make sense how on earth wud my post?

p/s: the cute guy was lookin yummylicious in blacque T and jeans. ooooooohhh :)

u stupid-O

im currently freakin pissed at a certain thing called...
BPSYCH.net
i spent my precious 1 and a half HOURS tryin to log-in
then crossin n uncrossin my fingers to let it go thru n not get stuck.
stupid msgs were flashed askin us to stop refreshin the page.
-not lik u can blame us!-
NOW i x even gt the tut i wanted!
i hate you
BPSYCH.net!!!!!!

bummer

bloggin from mich's room

less than 24hrs before UNRC
decos shud be done by now
i came bak at 7.30
rough day today, theft,suspicions, dissapointment and lotsa work!
currently friggin hungry
anxious to turn the pages of the philosopher's stone
social psych cud hav done me better
missin u dat i shud be indifferent to
not lookin forward to college
wan a good lauff immediately
sense im comin dwn wid somethin
wan maggi!

signin off

..................

~besties~

after what seemed lik a veryy long time.. we FINALLY met up laa....a girls day out in ONE UTAMA. thruth be told i thought we would b lik kaku or somethin...but it was just lik how we were wen we were kids! except of course:

a) we're older
b) we have better fashion sense
c) we went by car (and both of us can drive)-break from trains n buses!
d) we cam whore alot!

>>> rush hour 3 was so damn funny with d chris tucker guy..so bodoh laa he..
>>> ohh...before enterin the theater we HAD to take picz with ze simpzzions n each other :)



~shereen with the simpzionnez~
















~mua n simpzzionez~




~right before rush hour ~

>>>then we walked around, shopped for shereen's shoes n skirt , met confused ppl (haha!), saw budak kecik punye tolilet~cute lil thingys~ and had lunch.
>>> oh! and x forgettin cam whored AGAIN *winks* -our ability to take picz anywer is just amazing!


cliQue 'n' click!















and finally...







~guess besties alwiz cliQue no matter how long they've been apart~

~ME~

dis post sums up most of what i am, most of what i feel betta than i can my self

therz somethin bout it*winks*

**feel the love yet?**



**sin beach**





**hot-ness**





**how i wish!**

B(L)UG-ger!

what i have got recently?

**blaQue tube**
**short white skirt**
**peep-toe NOSE pumps**
**stoned sandals** (cost more than NOSE god knws y!)
**baby tees**

what i wanna get?

**huge ass shades**
**denim 3/4 pants**
**boot-cut jeans**
**2-way foundation**
**turquoise laced tank top**
**thermal brush**
**huge ass handbag**
**st.Ives moisturizing lotion**
**and loads of other stuff**

moral of d blog?
-i'm alwiz wanting to get sumthin =)
-im addicted to gettin new stuff :)
- and im not plannin to stop anytime soon X)

fa-sion-ista

the feeling wen u walk into a shop and try on clothes on their rack, ALLof em, drive the ppl up the wall and then walk out buyin somethin-sometimes nuthin- is beyond words!
itz a girlie girl thing and we -at least I- never get tired of doin it. =)
just this last month, i bought a blaque tube blouse
recently i told yuv to get me a white tennis skirt from F.O.S (was only RM 16.90- i wud b mad to miss dat!) ohh n it was from d kids section, i still cud fit...a bigger size than usual la..but dats not d point! i can still fit kids clothes!!!:D
yesterday me bought two tees in p.mlm....hey! ou was sellin a baby tee that was RM 12 in mlka n RM 10 in p.mlm for twenny buckx....wt a ripp off!! sheesh!
today i relaxed my hair with treatment n itz flat now...i wan more volume!!!!
but that will have to wait a few more days laa

**jasbiray: i miss u :) **

foools

guys!!

they are the biggest prob in any heterosexual girl's life.

WHEN an ex u never act stopped likin' suddenly contacts you, ur thrilled!

THEN ur sceptical coz he might not be d same person u used to knw

BUT then he shows u positive signals and u guys hit it off on dates n ethins goin fine.

NOW you find it weird that ethin's goin fine but he acts as if he isnt dating u in public

---> being a W.O.M.A.N u ask him bout it, n he says he aint ready to go serious n ur lik itz fine coz u aint ready either. n ethin goes fine, msgs, movies, msn..u knw d drill<---

THING is, when he starts off flirtin itz fine, but when you start it off, it freaks him off lik ur askin his hand in marriage -LOL- =D

NOW he doesnt pay attention to you lik he used to, he ignores ur msgs, x calls, n jus gives u d cold shoulder.

BUT you are trippin ova him! u hold urself bak from gettin in touch wit him, but he'z on ur mind 24/7

THEN u blog about it so u can release all the pent up frustration of not understanding wt do guys actually mean wen they say they lik u, n go out wit u, n make u happy, n then abruptly end it wit u left hanging not knwing wt to do next!

WHEN u finish bloggin bout it, u feel so much betta that u can go have fun now.!!n have fun wid x worries

--->y on earth ppl find girls hard to understand i will neva knw, but guys? they are one tough code to crack n it aint fun too!<---

****missin u****

what pu does when she's bored

1. Where were you an hour ago?
::at home::

2. Who will be your next kiss?
::the same i hope::

3. What kind of deodorant do you use?
::nivea::

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
::nope::

5. When was the last time you went outof the state?
:: last sunday::

6. Have you been to the movies in thelast 5 days?
::yupz, just today::

7.What was the last thing you drink?
::water::

8. What are you wearing right now?
::shorts n baby-tee::

9. What was your last purchase?
::chicken tender burger from BK::

10. Last food you ate?
::rice n dishes::

11. Who was the last person you talkedto on the phone?
::shaailu sayang-lil couz::

12. Have you bought any clothing itemsin the last week?
::yippee =) ::

13. Do you have a pet?
::9 coy fishes; some fens shui thingy::

14. What’s the last sporting event youwatched?
::i x watch sportin events::

15. Where did u go today?
::one utama::

16. If you could be anywhere rightnow, where would you be?
::in a tight cosy hug::

17. What is the last thing youpurchased online?
::nuthin::

18. One thing you hate about yourself?
::acne::

19.Favorite Song?
::too many::

20. Are you missing anyone?
::yes!::

21. Last play you saw?
::in college, by form 2 kids for MM::

22. What are your plans for the day?
::itz nite::

23. Ever gone to a camp?
::yes::

24. What is on the ad on the myspacepage right now?
::some crap::

25. Do you have any tattoos orpiercing?
::piercings::

26. Last person who made you cry?
::mom::

***i'm a bored college student with 2 months break-just bear wit me!

melaka

Venue: Jasin, Melaka (yuvz house; middle of an oil palm estate)
Date: 22nd-24th July 2007 (3D 2N)
Travellers: Pu n Mich

1st day
Arrival: 12pm
Lunch: carrot rice (yuvz dad punye special recipe) n other dishes
Tea: cucur udang n coffee
*then we went to eco, a place in the estate that has a huge pond n is all trees n plants n greenaries n oh, yeah! animals (chicken. squirrel, goats, geese,ducks)
we got on this stationary raft n were examining tadpoles!
ohhhhh..n baby goats (wteva they are called) are choooo cute.
*after a 40 minz drive to melaka town from jasin, we were standing in the nite market plce on jonkers street. they sell loads of stuff n craftwork.
Dinner:nasi goreng, ikan bakar(2kembung n 1 pari), kuey teau goreng ..food was yummy-licious
*at nite we watched gladiator n ghost whisperer, yuvz hse is soo cold even wen u dont on the fan n yuv sayang brought us blankies n she oso remembered my water..awwww..muahks!

2nd day
Breakfast: Mee Goweng
*went to get our bus tickets in Melaka Sentral n bought shoes there :D
*went around melaka town( A famosa, istana, st.pauls church, christ church) then went shoppin in jonkers street.
Lunch: Bulldog cafe- claypot tofu, cencaluk omellette, ponggeh chicken (i couldnt eat the chilli paste. damn! my crampin stomach!)
*we travelled home n lazed in d room 4 a while b4 goin into d gazebo in front of yuvz place n chattin till 7pm. she's so lucky to stay thr la...d garden is huge, n its really calmin n relaxin . oh yuv has an ayam api2 4 a pet n its called jane though it might not b a female!
Dinner: mee soup
*today we watched, ANTM, criminal minds n pink panther. by the time d mve fin..i was dead sleepy la n we slept soundly.

3rd day
Breakfast: Bihun goreng
*then we went gallavanting to Mahkota Parade n got some stuff
Lunch: Chicken Pasta (western food can only be eaten wen ur really hungry, coz u x mind d taste! sheesh!)
*we reached melaka sentral just in time 4 our bus.after d usual hugs n goodbyes, we left!
Departure: 3pm

~the end~

stew-pid!

y did i never get over you?

though you caused me so much pain

y did i never refrain from answering your msgs?

though i knew that i might not get a reply

y did i feel good about talkin to u when u were unattached?

though my heart kept tellin me it wont be for long

y did i allow my self to get comfortable with u?

though i knew that the comfort would soon be gone

y did i think that circumstances have changed?

though to u it hasn't

y did i allow myself to believe your words and gestures?

though i knew that u might not mean it

>>coz im stew-pid!<<

y did you say and do those things?

though it din mean anythin to u

y did u act as if things have changed?

though it hasn't to u

y did u make me comfortable?

though u knew that it was just temporary

y did u talk to me when ur vulnerable?

though u knew that i was just an option

y did u even start contacting me?

though u knew that u wont continue

y do u keep comin in and out of my life?

though u know that itz tearin my heart n mind apart

>>coz ur stew-pid!<<

karma

y cant ppl just say what they mean; n most importantly NOT say somethin they DONT mean!

if only ppl were lik dat, half the confusion n heart-break in the world would go away.but NOOOO...sayin wat u actually mean is verrrrryyyyy hard isn't it? *sarcastic lauff*

ok when u lik sum1, n u tell them u lik them, AND u treat them to all the right signals n gestures,
wt do u expect them to think?
wt do u do after that?

i dunno bout u, but me n some of my fwens who are in their right sense will;
1) expect them to tink that im interested in them n that d relationship is a lil' more than fwens
2) i would continue being dat way (esp. when nuthin bad has happened).

but some ppl,
they tell u they lik u, n rite after dat they ignore ur call/msgs. n ur lyke clueless as to y did things change.

here's d deal,

- if u really dont like some1 dont say u like them
-if u really dont care bout some1, dont act lik u do
-if u know ur not gonna be serious, tell the person >at least they will be prepared!<
-dont treat ppl as ur option at least not when they give u priority

n last but not least,
what goes around, comes bak around; itz karma baby!

.::great-ness::.

phewwww.!!
one stressed+fun + great week over.

my plans to go melaka to c lady yuvani tak jadi coz of damn training! yuvz was cool with it which was really not like her and it freaked me out. will go talk to her.

i watched 4 great movies this week. yaaayy!!

1) DIE HARD 4.0 (sun-3pm)
2) Surf's Up (tues-1.40pm)
3) Alone (tues-5.20pm)
4) Transformers (fri-3pm)

i alwiz find myself in crappy movies but this time it was different. i got great movies AND great seats! lucky? u bet was! ohh except for the 1st movie tho- we sat in the 2nd row! the stars of great movies must be shining down brightly on mua *winks*

oooohhhh..i had two dates this week, with the same person. it was both memorable and fun! i guess when things happen when you least expect it, it adds to the excitement!

i stayed over in michs for two nights and jas's on thurs. they are both great host and i wasn't feelin homesick at all.tanx u guys ..pu wuurrvves ya'.

mich and i went out to hartamas square on wed nite wif ann and dev. ANN is totally deaf! haha..but we still lurrve you nutsie! muahhks! *winkies*

AND the highlite of the week?

i got a team of dedicated, talented, cooperative and driven girls for my mentoring malaysia thingy. and we are assigned to taman petaling-girls school! wooo-hoo!!n yours truly, got chosen to be co-team coordinator. i still dont know my work, will ask chi sum later :). Dr. B said that the groupings arent confirmed yet but i really hope my group wont di-pisahkan *fingers-crossed*

oh btw, mentoring malaysia is a UNICEF funded project and is aimed at "touching hearts and inspiring lifes" of secondary schhol children. nex week we will be gettin the t-shirts and i can hardly wait!. (we all worked so hard to get in the whole project) . the trainings this week was great and lotsa fun!!

have i mentioned the word greattt enough??coz that is what this week was all about..greatness!!!in evry aspect.....:)

day trip

today was hillarious, touching,fun, singing, panic attacks, an hour of waiting and pee-tahaning..gosh! but it was all worth it.

arathy and i went to klia to fetch annes akka.she jz fin 4th year medi and coming bak 4 break. we reached at 12 (on time wei!!) tho on the way we constantly kept missing the klia sign. sheesh! damn government and road signs! then v reach kan, arathy scared to park wer all the othr cars were parked and I had to be in the car..1 hour! hitz.fm was getting boring d and i had to pee so badly.... then arthy took the car and i waited 4 her sis after a quick visit to the washroom.

almoz 1 ony annes akka came out and she said quick byes all to her fwenz and then came the hillarious ride home.

damn funny wei in the car, and we plannin how to surprise aunty and uncle.

finally reach gombuck, annes akka wen behind the hse, arathy n i wen from the front door .
aunty's look wen she saw annes akka was worth every sneakin around we did today! it was so funny and touchin and my jaw hurt from laughin hard. aunty almoz cud not breath d..hehe....

finally reached home ony at three.damn starved out n sleepy.

n ohh today was mom's anniversary, n parents took us out 4 mkn.it was ok laa..tho i feel lik vomittin nw..~yikes!~

fakers

finally im bak to bloggin'..on study break now..tatz d only thing i lik bout shrt sems :)

anyways i was just thinkin today, wen ppl say looks x matter, they actually mean looks shudnt matter to Y.O.U (not them!)

why is it such i might never know....but i was thinkin kan with all this frensta-ring craze and all, u will be in sumbody's frenz list for god knows how long and they x notice u. then one day u hav a good-photo day tanx to ur high mega pixel camera phone, and all of a sudden this people hu never noticed u before are all out to be ur fwen.
with strangers, they are just....i x knw wats wrong wif em laa. but the paling teruk ones are ppl whom u knw AND u knw they know u....but laz time u werent their fwen coz u din meet their "threshold of accepted appearance'', they x reply ur msgs and make it quite clear that they are not interested in being fwenz with u.

then 1 fine day..they come crawlin bak to u...with their hi's and well wishes, and sugar drippin words- which just happens to be 'coincidently' after they see ur new look-as if...!!!! tats gonna work! can ppl get more hypocritical than this?

bodoh tul orang cam nie!

and FYI i x need people lik u .....wait.... i HAVEN'T got the time or energy to waste on you and ur fake frenship gestures...u x knw the 1st thing bout being a friend... so..ScooooT!

nuthin much

im stoning in front of the comp with nuthin to do...actually i have tons of assignment and notes to fin..bt sumhow i x seem to gt up and start doin it. i carry my text with me evrywer, but still..it remains untouched. haiz..i hate short sems. wat with them trying to cram 14 weeks syllabus in only 8 weeks!ish!!

i rather go out, talk crap, post blogs that x mean anythin, or sleep rather than learn bout ppls personality and social psychology. wateva phase im goin thru now,....it has to stop...SOON!!!
or else...............................

MERDEKA! .....say what????

50 years of independence!

i see this sign on the roads, on banners, gov. offices, here, there everywhere.

wat does it mean to me?

im indifferent to it. i love malaysia, i was born here, i grew up here, i haf memories here, my family and friends are here. and im still indifferent to the independence. why?

true! our great leaders fought for the country wit their hearts and souls. they had the courage to go against the colonist. they stood up as the voice of the people. but above all that, the unity amongst the people of malaysia, then known as tanah melayu was the most important factor to convince the colonist we were ready to stand on our own. muhibah is a term modern day gov. keeps pushin at the ppl. however bak then muhibah wasnt in the speech of ministers, it was in the hearts of the people. it didn't matter which race u belonged to, wat ur faith was, or ur skin color. wat mattered was the mutual respect , the unity and racial integration amongst the people of malaysia.

sad though, that only 50 years into independence, the gov has to strive hard to instill such a basic value in the people. y are we still segregated according to race? y are we called indian, chinese, malay within the parameters of our own country, y are we not a unified whole called malaysians??malaysians are becoming very hypocritical. up front they put on these show of being indifferent to race, but within the four walls of each family, they are still, at any degree, bitching about another race. is this merely harmless gossiping, or does it pollute the minds of people into anti-muhibbah behavior?even in schools, we see people flocking with their own kind. yea there are some exceptions, but the larger picture is still very depressing.

why did our leaders fight for independence against the colonist who applied a pecah dan perintah policy on the people, just to see us berpecah like this?

the day every malaysian regards him/her self a malaysian , and the race column is given the least importance in demographic forms,

thats when muhibbah will truly exist, and the true essence of MERDEKA will be achieved!

finally!!

i can blog!
im trying hard to stop myself from hugging and kising my cpu
it was sent 4 upgrading and mr. computer man took a very, very, VERY long time to finish it,
itz now bak ..
i can blog.

weird-0

okie..so sham tagged me, o rather i demanded to be tagged..*laughs*
i have to list 10 weird things bout myself..lets juz c hw weird i am!

1> i x lik anythin othr than water, h20, air suam.....u can take me to d posh-est (is dat even a word) restaurant and offer to pay my bill, and i'll still order water as my drink.

2> i cry when i watch movies, overly sad and happy scenes. i can even cry when i picture a scene in my head!

3> i can read in the train and not in the bus. i'm still trying to understand y.

4> i olwiz overpack even if it' ony 4 a night. i need to practically transfer my hse to my destination coz i 'think' i'll need a certain sunmthin, and i x feel good knowin dat it's not there, therefore, i take EVERYTHING just in case i need SUMTHING.

5> i alwiz loose interest once i have sumthin'. like was dying for an mp3, but wen i gt it, i carry it with me bt seldom listen, nor update it. juz lik wen a guy im crushin on approaches me, i loose interest..yikes!

6> tanx sheryn 4 dis: while e1 thinks i'm thin, i think i'm fat. i drive my sis up d wall asking her if i look fat in an outfit. but then, im not experiencing eating disorders, i love to eat!

7>i'm an after-some-time neat freak. meaning dat, my room or lecture notes can be messed up lik hell. it bothers me, bt i x do nythin untill after some time. i go into this neat -freak mode and start organizing ething, to d very last detail.

8> i enjoy staring at people, and couples (in general and pda commiting wans specifically). its juz nice to ppl watch.i wudn't argue on hu influenced hu, but turns out yuvz n i are both ppl/couple watchers/starrers. bt hey we are verrrrryyyyy discreet.

9> i find gals hotter than guys. *giggles* im not lesb-0 but i juz think a woman is much more attractive then a guy. and gals hu have style and just lik damn! strutting their stuff with the hottest off-the-shelf trends are def hotter than any metrosexual guy.

10> i amuse myself by talking in weird accents from time to time....hehe n my all time fav. d india indian slang....and d vampire kinda slang (wer ur toungue kinda touches the top part of ur mouth)

11> oohhhh..i had to add this i actually thot i was special coz i had a dimple on my thigh and i was actually makin my sis jealous dat she din haf it (she fell 4 it= mission accomplished). it wasnt untill recently i found out it was........ cellulite! but of coz im not gonna tell my sis *evil lauffs* dis is actually an example of embarassing moment bt wt d heck!

i'm tagging:
1) sheryn
2)bryan
3) arathy
4) yuvz
5) cheryl

ppl hu hav been tagged haf(not havvvveeee to laa bt juz for fun) to write 10 weird things bout themselves in their blog too!

Big Deal

I'm doing what I think I was put on this earth to do. And I'm really grateful to have something that I'm passionate about and that I think is profoundly important.
-Marian Wright Edelmen

when ur in school, ur constantly pushed to do the ur very best. n by this wt they really mean is be better than the rest. then u grow up n u realize that u dont have to be better than any1 else, u juz have to be superior over ur former self. Self impovement, growth, yada..yada..yada..

the prob is, when ur bz growing up, and trying to be d best u can be, some inconsiderate, immature, boastful, i'm-suffering-from-episodic-amnesia ppl can really try to lower ur spirits and hurt ur self esteem and make u question ur significance. n d sad part is, they are way older than u and unfortunately have not acquired a decent level of maturity.

Background: in school, dis certain person and me were fwenz, then at crucial years of schooling v were in different classes. and i do not mean to be boastful, but d situation calls for me to remind dis certain person( or rather his/her mom) as to how things were, i certainly did betta than dis person in school exams (generallly), i was true to myself thru-out school, AND i def. did way betta in SPM. and after that i enrolled in psych and he/she went on to do medicine -BIG DEAL!-
btw, i cud haf done medi with my results, i CHOSE not to...i CHOSE, ..CHOSE...u understand??stuff dis into ur head!

1st blow:
i meet this person's mom. she's verrrryyyy proud of her child ( doin medicine laa= KING/QUEEN of d world!!) n in a conversation she told me,..ohh my second child isnt as motivated as my first, she wans to do sumthin EASY lik wat u doin

2nd blow:
dis person's mom meets my mom, n tells her..."ohh u know laa nowdays children, so lazy to study, my second wan oso lik dat, she wans to do sumthin lik ur daughter laa" (hellloooooo...! )

3rd blow:
mrs.mom meets me again, n asks "u seem very relaxed huh? my child(medi) is so stressed, studying and all, my second child, well she's more like u laa..lik to relax and all."

mrs.mom,
FYI i am not doin psych because i'm lazy to study or i coz tink its easy. im doin it because i LOVE it and i'm INTERESTED AND i c d SIGNIFICANCE and most importantly i'm CUT-OUT for it (redirect to the quote) so shoo-off with ur stupid comments. i do not think ur second child is inferior to ur first in anyway juz cause he/she is more relaxed, n i am DEFINITELY NOT inferior to ur medi-child(get dat straight!) . its juz sad that YOU cant accept a person 4 d person they are, and cant look out of ur cocunut shell.if e1's gonna b a doc, then hu's gonna do other things huh?? any course u choose will be hard/easy depending on how much effort u put into it.it has nuthin to do with a person's intellectual capacity, n no one job is less important than the other. i tink u seriously neeeeeed ~mentality counselling~ i'll check wif my lecturers if thrs sumthin lik dat/ u cud jus be d reason they might open up dat division!

ish!! i will never understand hw ppl can be so pathetic as to feel betta bout themselves by puttin others dwn. the very act of u tryin to put me dwn shows me how much ur intimidated by me.

i'm flattered.

p/s: psych is NOT easy!!!

wardrobe shitty-ness

im pissed!!

4 things u x mess with when it comes to me
1> me,myself and i

2> my family and fwenz

3> my significant other (currently no 1 laa)

4> my -wardobe-!!!!

first i thot my army green tank top was missin', i went berserk at home and i thot my uncle's maid stole it (dats a whole drama by itself)= only coz she gave us the ~benefit of the doubt~
then i found it ~tank heavens~...
then i was parading my white gypsy skirt AND guess wt i saw????!!
thr were 'karat' spots on my other wise whiteeyy skirt. Aaaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and my pink -new shade- nail polish is missing!!!!

y muz all dis happen to me?? why??wHy?? WHY??!!!!!

p/s: and sheryn tanx 4 helpin me out wit d link thingy*savvy chicka* ;)

*memories* with strangers

i was reading my notes 4 social comm class and my thoughts wondered off to la-la land. as usual, dat happens. so today i was thinkin kan that we all have memories of all sorta things, and most of the time its with somebedi close to us, family or fwens. but wt about memories with ppl u probably x c anymore or just drifted apart from. really sweet memories which u still think of wen ur alone and u wonder if the other person does it too.

** each time i pass lower foyer and walk thru HELP car park, i glance at the basketball court. i sat there during orientation nite with this guy (who went on to become my bf-1st- now v are juz exs laa..)it was act. d first time for the whole setting, me, stars, him and silence. it was probably the boring-est conversation coz v juz knew each othr and shy and were quiet most of the time. but i still liked it..~dunno y~

** when i was in school, i had this best friend of mine,and lemme tell u v wer close but v also gt into fights alot. >still remembr othr fwenz tellin me stop kawan her..hehe< we used to hangon the 4n 4 ages! i mean like for 3 hours straight or more..and our parents used to gt so worked up when d bill came. v just seemed to have things to talk about, sumhow.and v did all sorts of stupid things lik sneak outta hse and all.

** and then they are times when sum ppl, u might not know them, they migt not know u bt..theres juz this sort of chemistry between d two of u. an just a smile or a hi, can make ur heart go a flutter -ppl i do not mean this in a romantic way-that weird feeling u cant explain, u juz like d person a lot for no apparent reason. *winkies*

*ohh n this once i went to a singing competition, and dis guy sang really well. even my mom was at awe with him. and u know when we were much younger v main mata alot rather than act. talkin. yes! v had a lot of dat. n both of us made it to d nex level and we kinda lik said gonna meet d nex week all.but i x make it. when my fwens n i gt into d car, he said bye and d whole group of them actually came near d pagar all selambe-ly juz to say bye to us. so funny laa.

hhhmmm..itz juz nice to sit n tink bout snippets of memories rite....
back to reality: i still have a test tomm. haiz....~bummer!~

wen im supposed to be assignmenting

haiz...so i plan to get up at 7 2day..bt only ended up out of bed at 8.30...but thats expected out of me d..dunno y i even plan on putting d alarm when i just keep snoozing. i planned to fin up my lab report- proposal thingy. and im proud of my self coz i actually DID it!! ~yaay!!~i gt one more part to do laa..but overall siap d mah. d proposal is about The effects of media images on the self esteem of women. its supposed to be sumthin i can relate to and i really semangat to do it (i was dreaming bout d paper...so yeah) but as i was writing d paper, i like had a mental block. d words are there bt it juz wont come out. probably coz i was trying to hard to impress my lecturer that nuthin seemed good enuff.but if u had ms.X as ur lecturer, u'll be lik dat too.
lemme tell u bout my lecturer 4 dis subject. she's ms.X. she is a superb teacher n i mean reeeealllyy goooooooood and organized and determined and all things a lecturer should be laa. but then she can be sooo anal at times. v haf lik sudden pop quizzes almoz in every class and v haf only limited amt of time to fin it..-really limited- and wen times up she'll count dwn from 10 n start collecting d papers from d aisle. its a Huge auditorium tau, and most of the time ppl are goin berserk juz trying to get their quiz paper to her.
AND her Quiz papers has to be a certain size, a certain orientation and the lines should be straight, a bit bengkok, ur quiz goes un marked. i actually survived d last sem with her. plleeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeee god lemme survive this sem as well. i x repeat her subjects , its way to much of work.

-i think two weeks bak, she made all 200 of us stand and asked each of us a question. i felt lik i was in school again.. Geeeez!-

blue-blue me

i was SMS-ing yuvz today n she helped me nail down the exact term as to wat shan was to me. probably he WAS my sound board. n nw since we're no longer togeder, i guess maybe thats y i feel so lost coz i think dat maybe my fwenz x be interested in my probs and x spend time listening to me.don't get me wrong, i did love him, but he was also a fwen. c wat happens wen u go beyond ur better judgements and date ur fwen?? sum fwenz dont show any reactions when i start to say nethin bout my break-up, they listen and then talk bout sum other stuff ( i am very good at taking hints; so i shall bother u no more) n im like HELLOOO!! din i just attempt to pour my feelings out??~lets put them aside~

then there are the other group of caring fwens, who check on me to c hw im doin. but the thing is, when i hear their voice, hear them trying to soothe me, my voice cracks. how do i wish i wasn't sensitive and emotional. it just amazes me to c how some ppl can break up one day and then d nex minute they are gettin ready 4 another date. if only i cud do dat, der wudn't be a need 4 this pathetic post. but hey, thats wat i am now, at least i feel dat way.

i x feel lik talking to my caring fwenz bout my prob coz im just scared they might eventually get sick of it. yea... they x say it to me but that is bound to happen its only natural. the diff between shan(wen v were fwenz) and them is dat he loved me then so no matter hw annoying a fwen i was he was still thr..but that doesnt apply to other fwenz does it? i x want my caring fwenz running away wen they c me or act in a i'm-not-bothered way ....n now im confused if shan really was a fwen to start with or it was just a miserable ~girl-getting ~scheme..which i fell for...haiz..bodohnye aku..n thr are ppl hu think I am smart!

bloggin' madness

finally i came around and created a spot for myself..

and when did i decide to do it?

wen i have piles of assignment and research to do

haiz...when will i ever learn?

**probably i wont**

muahahaha...

p/s:im just lazy laa to blog today...nex time probably i'll post sensible things :p