weird-0

okie..so sham tagged me, o rather i demanded to be tagged..*laughs*
i have to list 10 weird things bout myself..lets juz c hw weird i am!

1> i x lik anythin othr than water, h20, air suam.....u can take me to d posh-est (is dat even a word) restaurant and offer to pay my bill, and i'll still order water as my drink.

2> i cry when i watch movies, overly sad and happy scenes. i can even cry when i picture a scene in my head!

3> i can read in the train and not in the bus. i'm still trying to understand y.

4> i olwiz overpack even if it' ony 4 a night. i need to practically transfer my hse to my destination coz i 'think' i'll need a certain sunmthin, and i x feel good knowin dat it's not there, therefore, i take EVERYTHING just in case i need SUMTHING.

5> i alwiz loose interest once i have sumthin'. like was dying for an mp3, but wen i gt it, i carry it with me bt seldom listen, nor update it. juz lik wen a guy im crushin on approaches me, i loose interest..yikes!

6> tanx sheryn 4 dis: while e1 thinks i'm thin, i think i'm fat. i drive my sis up d wall asking her if i look fat in an outfit. but then, im not experiencing eating disorders, i love to eat!

7>i'm an after-some-time neat freak. meaning dat, my room or lecture notes can be messed up lik hell. it bothers me, bt i x do nythin untill after some time. i go into this neat -freak mode and start organizing ething, to d very last detail.

8> i enjoy staring at people, and couples (in general and pda commiting wans specifically). its juz nice to ppl watch.i wudn't argue on hu influenced hu, but turns out yuvz n i are both ppl/couple watchers/starrers. bt hey we are verrrrryyyyy discreet.

9> i find gals hotter than guys. *giggles* im not lesb-0 but i juz think a woman is much more attractive then a guy. and gals hu have style and just lik damn! strutting their stuff with the hottest off-the-shelf trends are def hotter than any metrosexual guy.

10> i amuse myself by talking in weird accents from time to time....hehe n my all time fav. d india indian slang....and d vampire kinda slang (wer ur toungue kinda touches the top part of ur mouth)

11> oohhhh..i had to add this i actually thot i was special coz i had a dimple on my thigh and i was actually makin my sis jealous dat she din haf it (she fell 4 it= mission accomplished). it wasnt untill recently i found out it was........ cellulite! but of coz im not gonna tell my sis *evil lauffs* dis is actually an example of embarassing moment bt wt d heck!

i'm tagging:
1) sheryn
2)bryan
3) arathy
4) yuvz
5) cheryl

ppl hu hav been tagged haf(not havvvveeee to laa bt juz for fun) to write 10 weird things bout themselves in their blog too!

Big Deal

I'm doing what I think I was put on this earth to do. And I'm really grateful to have something that I'm passionate about and that I think is profoundly important.
-Marian Wright Edelmen

when ur in school, ur constantly pushed to do the ur very best. n by this wt they really mean is be better than the rest. then u grow up n u realize that u dont have to be better than any1 else, u juz have to be superior over ur former self. Self impovement, growth, yada..yada..yada..

the prob is, when ur bz growing up, and trying to be d best u can be, some inconsiderate, immature, boastful, i'm-suffering-from-episodic-amnesia ppl can really try to lower ur spirits and hurt ur self esteem and make u question ur significance. n d sad part is, they are way older than u and unfortunately have not acquired a decent level of maturity.

Background: in school, dis certain person and me were fwenz, then at crucial years of schooling v were in different classes. and i do not mean to be boastful, but d situation calls for me to remind dis certain person( or rather his/her mom) as to how things were, i certainly did betta than dis person in school exams (generallly), i was true to myself thru-out school, AND i def. did way betta in SPM. and after that i enrolled in psych and he/she went on to do medicine -BIG DEAL!-
btw, i cud haf done medi with my results, i CHOSE not to...i CHOSE, ..CHOSE...u understand??stuff dis into ur head!

1st blow:
i meet this person's mom. she's verrrryyyy proud of her child ( doin medicine laa= KING/QUEEN of d world!!) n in a conversation she told me,..ohh my second child isnt as motivated as my first, she wans to do sumthin EASY lik wat u doin

2nd blow:
dis person's mom meets my mom, n tells her..."ohh u know laa nowdays children, so lazy to study, my second wan oso lik dat, she wans to do sumthin lik ur daughter laa" (hellloooooo...! )

3rd blow:
mrs.mom meets me again, n asks "u seem very relaxed huh? my child(medi) is so stressed, studying and all, my second child, well she's more like u laa..lik to relax and all."

mrs.mom,
FYI i am not doin psych because i'm lazy to study or i coz tink its easy. im doin it because i LOVE it and i'm INTERESTED AND i c d SIGNIFICANCE and most importantly i'm CUT-OUT for it (redirect to the quote) so shoo-off with ur stupid comments. i do not think ur second child is inferior to ur first in anyway juz cause he/she is more relaxed, n i am DEFINITELY NOT inferior to ur medi-child(get dat straight!) . its juz sad that YOU cant accept a person 4 d person they are, and cant look out of ur cocunut shell.if e1's gonna b a doc, then hu's gonna do other things huh?? any course u choose will be hard/easy depending on how much effort u put into it.it has nuthin to do with a person's intellectual capacity, n no one job is less important than the other. i tink u seriously neeeeeed ~mentality counselling~ i'll check wif my lecturers if thrs sumthin lik dat/ u cud jus be d reason they might open up dat division!

ish!! i will never understand hw ppl can be so pathetic as to feel betta bout themselves by puttin others dwn. the very act of u tryin to put me dwn shows me how much ur intimidated by me.

i'm flattered.

p/s: psych is NOT easy!!!

wardrobe shitty-ness

im pissed!!

4 things u x mess with when it comes to me
1> me,myself and i

2> my family and fwenz

3> my significant other (currently no 1 laa)

4> my -wardobe-!!!!

first i thot my army green tank top was missin', i went berserk at home and i thot my uncle's maid stole it (dats a whole drama by itself)= only coz she gave us the ~benefit of the doubt~
then i found it ~tank heavens~...
then i was parading my white gypsy skirt AND guess wt i saw????!!
thr were 'karat' spots on my other wise whiteeyy skirt. Aaaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and my pink -new shade- nail polish is missing!!!!

y muz all dis happen to me?? why??wHy?? WHY??!!!!!

p/s: and sheryn tanx 4 helpin me out wit d link thingy*savvy chicka* ;)

*memories* with strangers

i was reading my notes 4 social comm class and my thoughts wondered off to la-la land. as usual, dat happens. so today i was thinkin kan that we all have memories of all sorta things, and most of the time its with somebedi close to us, family or fwens. but wt about memories with ppl u probably x c anymore or just drifted apart from. really sweet memories which u still think of wen ur alone and u wonder if the other person does it too.

** each time i pass lower foyer and walk thru HELP car park, i glance at the basketball court. i sat there during orientation nite with this guy (who went on to become my bf-1st- now v are juz exs laa..)it was act. d first time for the whole setting, me, stars, him and silence. it was probably the boring-est conversation coz v juz knew each othr and shy and were quiet most of the time. but i still liked it..~dunno y~

** when i was in school, i had this best friend of mine,and lemme tell u v wer close but v also gt into fights alot. >still remembr othr fwenz tellin me stop kawan her..hehe< we used to hangon the 4n 4 ages! i mean like for 3 hours straight or more..and our parents used to gt so worked up when d bill came. v just seemed to have things to talk about, sumhow.and v did all sorts of stupid things lik sneak outta hse and all.

** and then they are times when sum ppl, u might not know them, they migt not know u bt..theres juz this sort of chemistry between d two of u. an just a smile or a hi, can make ur heart go a flutter -ppl i do not mean this in a romantic way-that weird feeling u cant explain, u juz like d person a lot for no apparent reason. *winkies*

*ohh n this once i went to a singing competition, and dis guy sang really well. even my mom was at awe with him. and u know when we were much younger v main mata alot rather than act. talkin. yes! v had a lot of dat. n both of us made it to d nex level and we kinda lik said gonna meet d nex week all.but i x make it. when my fwens n i gt into d car, he said bye and d whole group of them actually came near d pagar all selambe-ly juz to say bye to us. so funny laa.

hhhmmm..itz juz nice to sit n tink bout snippets of memories rite....
back to reality: i still have a test tomm. haiz....~bummer!~

wen im supposed to be assignmenting

haiz...so i plan to get up at 7 2day..bt only ended up out of bed at 8.30...but thats expected out of me d..dunno y i even plan on putting d alarm when i just keep snoozing. i planned to fin up my lab report- proposal thingy. and im proud of my self coz i actually DID it!! ~yaay!!~i gt one more part to do laa..but overall siap d mah. d proposal is about The effects of media images on the self esteem of women. its supposed to be sumthin i can relate to and i really semangat to do it (i was dreaming bout d paper...so yeah) but as i was writing d paper, i like had a mental block. d words are there bt it juz wont come out. probably coz i was trying to hard to impress my lecturer that nuthin seemed good enuff.but if u had ms.X as ur lecturer, u'll be lik dat too.
lemme tell u bout my lecturer 4 dis subject. she's ms.X. she is a superb teacher n i mean reeeealllyy goooooooood and organized and determined and all things a lecturer should be laa. but then she can be sooo anal at times. v haf lik sudden pop quizzes almoz in every class and v haf only limited amt of time to fin it..-really limited- and wen times up she'll count dwn from 10 n start collecting d papers from d aisle. its a Huge auditorium tau, and most of the time ppl are goin berserk juz trying to get their quiz paper to her.
AND her Quiz papers has to be a certain size, a certain orientation and the lines should be straight, a bit bengkok, ur quiz goes un marked. i actually survived d last sem with her. plleeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeee god lemme survive this sem as well. i x repeat her subjects , its way to much of work.

-i think two weeks bak, she made all 200 of us stand and asked each of us a question. i felt lik i was in school again.. Geeeez!-

blue-blue me

i was SMS-ing yuvz today n she helped me nail down the exact term as to wat shan was to me. probably he WAS my sound board. n nw since we're no longer togeder, i guess maybe thats y i feel so lost coz i think dat maybe my fwenz x be interested in my probs and x spend time listening to me.don't get me wrong, i did love him, but he was also a fwen. c wat happens wen u go beyond ur better judgements and date ur fwen?? sum fwenz dont show any reactions when i start to say nethin bout my break-up, they listen and then talk bout sum other stuff ( i am very good at taking hints; so i shall bother u no more) n im like HELLOOO!! din i just attempt to pour my feelings out??~lets put them aside~

then there are the other group of caring fwens, who check on me to c hw im doin. but the thing is, when i hear their voice, hear them trying to soothe me, my voice cracks. how do i wish i wasn't sensitive and emotional. it just amazes me to c how some ppl can break up one day and then d nex minute they are gettin ready 4 another date. if only i cud do dat, der wudn't be a need 4 this pathetic post. but hey, thats wat i am now, at least i feel dat way.

i x feel lik talking to my caring fwenz bout my prob coz im just scared they might eventually get sick of it. yea... they x say it to me but that is bound to happen its only natural. the diff between shan(wen v were fwenz) and them is dat he loved me then so no matter hw annoying a fwen i was he was still thr..but that doesnt apply to other fwenz does it? i x want my caring fwenz running away wen they c me or act in a i'm-not-bothered way ....n now im confused if shan really was a fwen to start with or it was just a miserable ~girl-getting ~scheme..which i fell for...haiz..bodohnye aku..n thr are ppl hu think I am smart!

bloggin' madness

finally i came around and created a spot for myself..

and when did i decide to do it?

wen i have piles of assignment and research to do

haiz...when will i ever learn?

**probably i wont**

muahahaha...

p/s:im just lazy laa to blog today...nex time probably i'll post sensible things :p