a day in 2009

yes i've been busy. my F**king internet is down at home. and i've got a new hobby :) and it's HIM.

I'm officially 3/4 in a relationship..ok make that 1/2....oh god!

Is it normal for people to get cold feet just to be in a relationship???

word of advise: prolly not a good idea to tell your over-protective-capable-of-killing-people-who-hurt-you kinda family everything about your would-be/might-be bf.
If you aren't having cold feet d, they'll make you have one!.

But that's the reason you love them ;)

Can't wait for Sunday.

xoxoxo
Is it just me or 2010 just looks like it's gonna be an awesome year?

blaque & white

I just met a client who is of the same age as me. As i'm sitting in front of her, lookin into her eyes and trying to make sense of the pain and suffering that they have witnessed all these years, i can't help feeling sorry for all the things she could have been. if only...

Her parents separated and she was forced to stay with a relative who stopped her from going to school and made her do all the house hold chores while their own kids went to school. Typical Cinderella-syndrome.

And just as easily as that, i could have been her. Memories of my parents getting a divorce keeps flooding back to me and it must be the sign of what a good parent my mom is that i never once felt the pain and negative reactions of a broken family.

Divorces are ugly. I see that NOW. Especially when parents let their children suffer as a result of their choices. I'm grateful that i wasn't subjected to that.

And i'm thankful that i came out great and with my emotions and self worth intact. Not forgetting the memorable and eventful journey i've had growing up.

Like seriously?!

I'm a thinker. I guess I've always been. I micro analyze everything whether its boys or toys. And very so often i find my self not living the moment but contemplating the future that will be shaped by the choices i make today.

I Always thought that when you're meant to be with someone, the first time you meet them, its gonna be magic. Then it progresses. But really, there's no evidence for this (besides the media). Think about it, does everyone feel magic when they meet the person that, leave alone getting married, they wanna date? No they probably don't. But still, we. I. don't progress with people coz it just doesn't feel right. So much so that i'm unclear of whether the prob's in me or them.

I guess my real prob is the dating system here. We don't date, get to know and THEN fall in love. It happens backwards. And i x like that. How do you fall for someone without knowing them?? If i wanna get to know them and don't like what i find out, it's my fault as well. Like seriously!! WTH? If i just date without actually being in love, I'm perceived as cheap. Or worst, the guy thinks i'm playing him out. I don't get them to buy me dinners or expensive gifts coz I am in fact truly financially independant . But still i guess some people might think it's wrong.

at the end of the day I just wanna have fun and seriously i don't give a shit anymore. If that makes me cheap. Then maybe i am. So...?

random

Yesterday the interview was aired!

and that was scarier than the interview!but all was good, my MOM is a celebrity now (yea i knw!) she got more calls than me.. but that's probably because how many of my friends would watch the tamil news anyway???

today is another day at work, and i have piles and piles of case reports to write and annual gathering is this weekend, plus Ivy's X-mas party next weekend AND i want to make time for my friends, those around and those who just came back from diff parts of the world. Sigh! So much to do, So little time and only ONE me.

Digi has something against me. It's official! I keep getting my cdt cut way too much even if it's FnF. WTH?!!

i wanna watch couple's retreat, new moon and ninja assassin. Any takers??

I'm smelling christmas in the air ppl. Gosh! i love this time of the year =))and i've just been made secret santa for our christmas party. any ideas ppl?

Proud Thursday

it was a very wet and gloomy morning while i was driving to work

(not to mention *boleh-mati* kinda jam)

Now its Almost 1 and my spirits are up

not coz its almost lunch,

BUT coz *ahem*

I just gave an interview with a RTM tamil news-person (say what!)

My tamil was.....ok la

and i din use any obscene direct translation *like i did during practice sessions with the coleagues- and caused them to ROFL!*

for that alone, i deserve a BIG BIG BIG pat on the back.

sungguh bangga rasanya =)))

Happy thursday ppl!