isn't it funny how Oprah can be both inspirational and depressing at the same time?
i see all these people who are special in some way and they are so strong about it, goin on with life in the best way that they can and not compalining though they might be lacking a leg, an arm or both. but still they preservere and watching them makes me ashamed of the minude things we make a fuss over and the many things we take for granted.
we complain about zits and frown, some ppl x have a face or rather have reconstructed faces and they still can smile.
we complain about doing work, some ppl have lost their hands and use prosthetics to even take care of their babies.
we complain about walking a distance, some people would give their all to be able to do that.
we complain that we're havin a bad hair day, some people have their whole bodies full of hair that can't b covered with a cap
thats why i don't watch Oprah, you see, i get depressed. then i get some sort of a "survivor guilt" for being blessed and it progresses to me being anxious over the uncertainties the future holds. i've always thought of myself having a bright, spotless future, but i bet that's wt all those ppl thought till their lifes got turned 360 degrees.
haiz! i need to find other things to do than watch tv. maybe i'll go watch E! that's a no-brainer, no-depression, no-anxiety channel.
oh and might i add that watching the BIGGEST LOSER has made me opt for carrot stix instead of chocs. i can't say my fwenz are gonna be too happy if i start counting the calory value for everythin i eat...see why i shouldn't be watching all these shows? i absorb it and then its stuck in my head!sheesh!
Monday, July 13, 2009
after an uneventful day n nite....,
(x)= D.O.N.E
1. Bungee Jumping
2. Learn a musical instrument
3. Learn a form of dance
4. get crafty
5. bake a cake
6. bake cookies
7. prepare a 3 course meal (by myself)
8. enter a singing competition audition
9. sing a song and dance in the rain-i'm so indian!
10. swim in the rain (x)
11. go GREEN
12. volunteer for a cause and make a difference
13. work in a foreign country
14. do at least 3 forms of water sports- diving, cayaking, white-water-rafting..etc
15. go hungry for more than a day (x)
16. kiss in the rain- it shud be obvious by now..i love rain!
17. write at least 5 poems
18. get a research/article published
19. counsel at least 1 person back to a relatively norm state
20. GO herbal;skin care, hair care, nails, treatments.
21. hop on a hot air-balloon
22. try cuisines from 3 different countries that are unique
23. carry a pet- i don't carry animals; ANY animal
24. learn to be diplomatic
25. learn to tie a saree (x)
26. own 50 pairs of shoes- even the thought makes me =)
27. finish reading the Bagavad Gita
28. break a heart and get mine broken (x) thank god i'm over n done with this =)
29. get my own place
30. Read one other scripture from another religion
31. get my own car
32. eat take out on a beach
33. write a love letter-at least once, tho i'll prolly ketawa terbahak2 while at it :D
34. meet someone i befriended online (x)
35. pole dance! hahahaha....*sees aunty(my aunt reads my blog) faint!*
36. go to red carpet event at least once
37. attend a concert!
38. play some kinda sports
39. get married :)
40. eat a whole meal with chopstixs
41. wear a traditional outfit from another culture.
42. give a speech in front of at least one famous person
43. appear on tv for sumnn significant
44. wear a 2-piece bikini while i can *and my aunt faints again*
45. join a gym
46. learn to swim..yes i cant swim
47. visit all Asian countries =)
48. go camping and jungle trekking with fwenz
49. act in a stage production
50. complete my masters n Phd..simply coz i lik the title Dr ...*save ur thots, i knw! :p*
1. Bungee Jumping
2. Learn a musical instrument
3. Learn a form of dance
4. get crafty
5. bake a cake
6. bake cookies
7. prepare a 3 course meal (by myself)
8. enter a singing competition audition
9. sing a song and dance in the rain-i'm so indian!
10. swim in the rain (x)
11. go GREEN
12. volunteer for a cause and make a difference
13. work in a foreign country
14. do at least 3 forms of water sports- diving, cayaking, white-water-rafting..etc
15. go hungry for more than a day (x)
16. kiss in the rain- it shud be obvious by now..i love rain!
17. write at least 5 poems
18. get a research/article published
19. counsel at least 1 person back to a relatively norm state
20. GO herbal;skin care, hair care, nails, treatments.
21. hop on a hot air-balloon
22. try cuisines from 3 different countries that are unique
23. carry a pet- i don't carry animals; ANY animal
24. learn to be diplomatic
25. learn to tie a saree (x)
26. own 50 pairs of shoes- even the thought makes me =)
27. finish reading the Bagavad Gita
28. break a heart and get mine broken (x) thank god i'm over n done with this =)
29. get my own place
30. Read one other scripture from another religion
31. get my own car
32. eat take out on a beach
33. write a love letter-at least once, tho i'll prolly ketawa terbahak2 while at it :D
34. meet someone i befriended online (x)
35. pole dance! hahahaha....*sees aunty(my aunt reads my blog) faint!*
36. go to red carpet event at least once
37. attend a concert!
38. play some kinda sports
39. get married :)
40. eat a whole meal with chopstixs
41. wear a traditional outfit from another culture.
42. give a speech in front of at least one famous person
43. appear on tv for sumnn significant
44. wear a 2-piece bikini while i can *and my aunt faints again*
45. join a gym
46. learn to swim..yes i cant swim
47. visit all Asian countries =)
48. go camping and jungle trekking with fwenz
49. act in a stage production
50. complete my masters n Phd..simply coz i lik the title Dr ...*save ur thots, i knw! :p*
ATTENTION: drivers!
i was in singing class today and the people there were talking bout someone who met an accident...,
so it turns out that along federal highway-near amcorp mall, evil-plans-scheming ppl deliberately pour oil on the road that causes ppl to get into an accident. the reason? wen u get knocked, they are the first to rush to ur aid n get u a tow truck and give u all the help u need. the tow truck ppl might also be involved in this syndicate.
moral of the story: DO NOT accept help from ppl who miraculously come to ur aid. as sceptical as i may sound, most malysians aren't that helpful..so a bunch of ppl comin to help u as if on cue shud be enuff to make u aware that sumn is off.
the solution: its always best to have ur own car services ppl..AAM etc.
happy driving =)
so it turns out that along federal highway-near amcorp mall, evil-plans-scheming ppl deliberately pour oil on the road that causes ppl to get into an accident. the reason? wen u get knocked, they are the first to rush to ur aid n get u a tow truck and give u all the help u need. the tow truck ppl might also be involved in this syndicate.
moral of the story: DO NOT accept help from ppl who miraculously come to ur aid. as sceptical as i may sound, most malysians aren't that helpful..so a bunch of ppl comin to help u as if on cue shud be enuff to make u aware that sumn is off.
the solution: its always best to have ur own car services ppl..AAM etc.
happy driving =)
Saturday, July 11, 2009
eye-O-drama
i just got back from ampang puteri-the sister needed an eye specialist.
god! this dr has so many ppl waiting to see her that we had to wait more than 3 hours for our turn....i was getting so restless and even managed to get into a fight with my sister..sheesh!
anyway from the moment i entered i see all these newspaper cuttings about how contact lenses can cause all these eye infections and in some cases leading to blindeness. yikes! i was freaked out n went to read further (coz i gt my own pair a month ago). so as i was reading on, basically it says that if you arent meticulous enuff it'll cause parasitic infections *swallows* and then lead to well all other eye-tragedies :S. and most of the time happens to ppl who use it for cosmetic purposes than remediation...so i'm lik phewww...i'm short sighted so i'm not exactly using it for cosmetic purposes and i specifically asked 4 non-color; but my power was too low for it.problem solved rite? now i'm feeling all good bout myself n my contact lense.
till this girl who was waiting with us comes out with a bandage on one eye. and the mom is explaining the procedure the dr used; sumn involving, expanding the eye and cutting and....i-don't-know-coz-i-tuned-out (it's too much for me! i might faint of nausea!). then after a while the anaesthetic starts wearing off n now she can physically feeel the cut n pain and pedih-ness of it all! she started crying n shaking her legs (in attempt to control the pain)...and her mother says this " thats y wen mommy told u not to wear contact lens, x wanna listen".
Me: *looks in horror at mom*
Mom: gives me the i-told-u-so look. ish!
then after million light years we get called in n wt is the first thing i see?
a board saying all the eye-diseases that happens with lack of care for contact lens. with gruesome pictures!
is this some sorta sign?????
in the anxiety of how the future my vision (literally) is gonna be i stupidly asked the dr...."erm, i'm wearing contacts, how do i take care of it"
Dr: din the ppl who sold u the contacts teach u to wear it?
Me: yea....*trail off*
thank god my mom rephrased n asked wt the dr thought of contacts. n she said, u have to be very careful, if it irritates take it out immediately n see a dr, u shud b fine.hhhhhmmm....expected ans but at least she din say its totally completely bad.
i think i'll stick to my glasses for some time....unless its really really reeeaalllly necessary. :(
god! this dr has so many ppl waiting to see her that we had to wait more than 3 hours for our turn....i was getting so restless and even managed to get into a fight with my sister..sheesh!
anyway from the moment i entered i see all these newspaper cuttings about how contact lenses can cause all these eye infections and in some cases leading to blindeness. yikes! i was freaked out n went to read further (coz i gt my own pair a month ago). so as i was reading on, basically it says that if you arent meticulous enuff it'll cause parasitic infections *swallows* and then lead to well all other eye-tragedies :S. and most of the time happens to ppl who use it for cosmetic purposes than remediation...so i'm lik phewww...i'm short sighted so i'm not exactly using it for cosmetic purposes and i specifically asked 4 non-color; but my power was too low for it.problem solved rite? now i'm feeling all good bout myself n my contact lense.
till this girl who was waiting with us comes out with a bandage on one eye. and the mom is explaining the procedure the dr used; sumn involving, expanding the eye and cutting and....i-don't-know-coz-i-tuned-out (it's too much for me! i might faint of nausea!). then after a while the anaesthetic starts wearing off n now she can physically feeel the cut n pain and pedih-ness of it all! she started crying n shaking her legs (in attempt to control the pain)...and her mother says this " thats y wen mommy told u not to wear contact lens, x wanna listen".
Me: *looks in horror at mom*
Mom: gives me the i-told-u-so look. ish!
then after million light years we get called in n wt is the first thing i see?
a board saying all the eye-diseases that happens with lack of care for contact lens. with gruesome pictures!
is this some sorta sign?????
in the anxiety of how the future my vision (literally) is gonna be i stupidly asked the dr...."erm, i'm wearing contacts, how do i take care of it"
Dr: din the ppl who sold u the contacts teach u to wear it?
Me: yea....*trail off*
thank god my mom rephrased n asked wt the dr thought of contacts. n she said, u have to be very careful, if it irritates take it out immediately n see a dr, u shud b fine.hhhhhmmm....expected ans but at least she din say its totally completely bad.
i think i'll stick to my glasses for some time....unless its really really reeeaalllly necessary. :(
Friday, July 10, 2009
shoppers day out
carrying lotsa shopping bags out from the car after a days worth of shopping is one of my many fav things in the world!
the excitement i feel wen i get a good bargain, the feel of puttin on that new dress, skirt, blouse and lookin at urself in the mirror, and the sound of the machine goin 'ka-ching' as the deal is finalized and the pretty stuff are urs to love and treasure...awwww =))))))
i got 4 tops and 1 pencil skirt all for RM160! and...my mom din flinch once at my choice of clothes. now all i have to do is somehow get exempted from NS, hunt dwn major companies and get myself a job...simple as that.
...or NOT!. damn! i knew i had to get back to reality sooner or later.
anyhow, the day was still great :)
looking forward to an awesome week ahead with my chickas!
p/s: i'm proud of myself that i did not give in to temptation and buy shoes or casual clothes. i stuck to my to-buy list *pats self on back*
the excitement i feel wen i get a good bargain, the feel of puttin on that new dress, skirt, blouse and lookin at urself in the mirror, and the sound of the machine goin 'ka-ching' as the deal is finalized and the pretty stuff are urs to love and treasure...awwww =))))))
i got 4 tops and 1 pencil skirt all for RM160! and...my mom din flinch once at my choice of clothes. now all i have to do is somehow get exempted from NS, hunt dwn major companies and get myself a job...simple as that.
...or NOT!. damn! i knew i had to get back to reality sooner or later.
anyhow, the day was still great :)
looking forward to an awesome week ahead with my chickas!
p/s: i'm proud of myself that i did not give in to temptation and buy shoes or casual clothes. i stuck to my to-buy list *pats self on back*
Thursday, July 9, 2009
MJ controversies
seriously whats the deal with all the people who still make a big deal about MJ??
the man lived, made great music..and yes he prolly screwed up here and there-but dont we all? and now he's no more! stop fighting and blaming and acusing him of all the things that he can't defend anymore!
first, bars and clubs make money out of him by paying "tribute" days to MJ- Charging ppl more money,
SEcondly, all the questions surrounding his death, heart attack? suicide? overdose? -its escalated to a point i think it dusnt matter HOW, he's GONE!!
Next, every satelite, newspaper n online portal is dedicated to do a total biograpy of the man where they dig up everything and question and question n question all the decisions- yes everybody makes less than rational decisions, even MJ maybe did just because he's KIng of Pop dont make him less human...give him a break!
Then, they are some bodoh people who make his religion sucha big issue,seriously what does it matter?? he can be a member of his own religion for all i care, he gave us music coz he was an artist n he loved wt he did. he DID NOT however give us the right to scrutinize his every move and action...and yes, he's religion.
and the latest, O'Reily claiming his less black for having white donors for his in-vitro children. oh really?? so i guess Mr. Mrs Jolie-Pitt aren't anythin huh? coz they practically got reps from countries all over the globe as their kids!.
he might have bleached his skin or did whteva he did but he's not around to justify himself (not that i think he owes any1 any)and have some respect....ALOT of respect actually. sheesh!
the man lived, made great music..and yes he prolly screwed up here and there-but dont we all? and now he's no more! stop fighting and blaming and acusing him of all the things that he can't defend anymore!
first, bars and clubs make money out of him by paying "tribute" days to MJ- Charging ppl more money,
SEcondly, all the questions surrounding his death, heart attack? suicide? overdose? -its escalated to a point i think it dusnt matter HOW, he's GONE!!
Next, every satelite, newspaper n online portal is dedicated to do a total biograpy of the man where they dig up everything and question and question n question all the decisions- yes everybody makes less than rational decisions, even MJ maybe did just because he's KIng of Pop dont make him less human...give him a break!
Then, they are some bodoh people who make his religion sucha big issue,seriously what does it matter?? he can be a member of his own religion for all i care, he gave us music coz he was an artist n he loved wt he did. he DID NOT however give us the right to scrutinize his every move and action...and yes, he's religion.
and the latest, O'Reily claiming his less black for having white donors for his in-vitro children. oh really?? so i guess Mr. Mrs Jolie-Pitt aren't anythin huh? coz they practically got reps from countries all over the globe as their kids!.
he might have bleached his skin or did whteva he did but he's not around to justify himself (not that i think he owes any1 any)and have some respect....ALOT of respect actually. sheesh!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
it's been four years since i stepped into HELP.-the awkward phase of entering a whole new chapter in your life in a new institution in a new town with complete strangers! (gombakland-ers wud knw coz we are basically in our comfort zone all thruout school with fwenz)...i even had thoughts of stoppin coz i thought i was too 'kampung' to fit into the whole college culture. anyhow, days turned into months, months to years and after 4 years, i look back and am glad that i stayed on. A degree in psych, friends from all over, many many memories-some painful, some sweet, and gazzilions were.... hillarious!!
i went in as a girl with tonnes of insecurities as a person and in others n i now leave with my head up high with certainty about who i am, what i'm made of, my values and of coz the people that helped me go thru this self-discovery process and who have been a big source of inspiration and help...then and now.
this post is dedicated to the main cast who have held prominent roles in my life and have been, my support system in good and bad times these past years. in no particular order:
*YUVanI Sidhu*
My first and longest fwen in college; since orientation day in Foundation. followed me on my first sorta-kinda- date out; tho she din lik the guy. loved sungai wang and times square with me and my first shopping kaki; she always questions n questions n questions and i have to say had a very..."interesting" way of perceiving things. nevertheless, it helped me think out of the shell and question what i had held on as universal truths. she also was there on my first clubbin session and told me that everything is gonna be ok. hugs for always texting me even tho i don't text back as often. i DO appreciate it :)
*Michelle Renu Singh*
The person i can be myself most with. has always been there if i need to talk to someone whether its somethin serious or just to let off some steam. never judging me and always being my teman in so many things that its hard to keep track of everythin. does my make-up for me wen we're going out, always watches out for not only me but everyone else and my go-to person in every imaginable situation. she's so comfortable with being herself that i started feelin comfortable with myself too. the thing is, i always thot that being quiet n introverted was bad and i shud change and she proved me wrong..gladly. Hugs for always being my rock on land and even in the deep, wide, blue sabah sea ;)
* Jasbir Kaur*
one of those rare people you hit it off with the moment u talk to them!she is my another temaning partner all thruout degree and has been such great company together with her sisters and brother all these years. she's is responsible for my first clubbing session ;) n has always helped me and stayed by me even at times when i felt abandoned by everyone else. a day out with her is definitely filled with lauffs and giggles about things that basically dusnt make sense to anyone and not even to us, but we'll still lauff our heads out first and secondly at ourselves for being silly! she reinforced the family values in me which i dont find in many people out there. hugs for always having my back.
*Ann Nicole Nunis*
the life of a party, and someone you go out with if all u wanna do is sit back and chillax. got to say the road was not always smooth for us but we're made it for four years and i daresay many more years to come. introduced me to the art of online shopping tho she has to take the cake as the online shopping queen of all times. ann is a huge contributor to all our outings as she brings kelini (her car) that has angkuted all of us to so many different places al these years. the only euro-asian person i knw and prolly will only knw that can understand and even attempts to speak in tamil and watches tamil movies, and goes gaga over indian actors! an avid animal lover and always trying to show me the cuteness of cats which i still DONT see :p hugs for always planning trips that have turned out to be memorable for all of us.
* KohilaH Sivasamy*
the most outspoken and straight-forward of the lot! thanks for making me see that it's ok to speak ur mind and be honest about wht u want n dont. my dancing partner in the short-term contemporary lessons and also in performing in sarees :)i was always getting mistaken for being her during foundation and its a compliment coz the women is a hottie :)she's always striked me as being strong and levelheaded; two terms that i don't completey identify with which i knw is crucial to me now and in the future. hugs for being yourself all thruout and being true.
* Devanand Raj*
the clown! he comes up with so many craetive names for ann that more often than not annoys her and their antics are so funny that u cant help but l.o.l! has been accepted as one of our GFS!!!! and knows boutgirls-stuff as much as us coz....well he din have a choice, we made him listen :p hugs for always making really good jokes and making us lauff.
...these six were the major reason i survived college and had lotsa fun while at it. while our lives take us on different paths, our memories together wud be etched forever on....well, FAcebook for one :p and in my heart and mind :)
here's a long over-due
THANK YOU! =)
i went in as a girl with tonnes of insecurities as a person and in others n i now leave with my head up high with certainty about who i am, what i'm made of, my values and of coz the people that helped me go thru this self-discovery process and who have been a big source of inspiration and help...then and now.
this post is dedicated to the main cast who have held prominent roles in my life and have been, my support system in good and bad times these past years. in no particular order:
*YUVanI Sidhu*
My first and longest fwen in college; since orientation day in Foundation. followed me on my first sorta-kinda- date out; tho she din lik the guy. loved sungai wang and times square with me and my first shopping kaki; she always questions n questions n questions and i have to say had a very..."interesting" way of perceiving things. nevertheless, it helped me think out of the shell and question what i had held on as universal truths. she also was there on my first clubbin session and told me that everything is gonna be ok. hugs for always texting me even tho i don't text back as often. i DO appreciate it :)
*Michelle Renu Singh*
The person i can be myself most with. has always been there if i need to talk to someone whether its somethin serious or just to let off some steam. never judging me and always being my teman in so many things that its hard to keep track of everythin. does my make-up for me wen we're going out, always watches out for not only me but everyone else and my go-to person in every imaginable situation. she's so comfortable with being herself that i started feelin comfortable with myself too. the thing is, i always thot that being quiet n introverted was bad and i shud change and she proved me wrong..gladly. Hugs for always being my rock on land and even in the deep, wide, blue sabah sea ;)
* Jasbir Kaur*
one of those rare people you hit it off with the moment u talk to them!she is my another temaning partner all thruout degree and has been such great company together with her sisters and brother all these years. she's is responsible for my first clubbing session ;) n has always helped me and stayed by me even at times when i felt abandoned by everyone else. a day out with her is definitely filled with lauffs and giggles about things that basically dusnt make sense to anyone and not even to us, but we'll still lauff our heads out first and secondly at ourselves for being silly! she reinforced the family values in me which i dont find in many people out there. hugs for always having my back.
*Ann Nicole Nunis*
the life of a party, and someone you go out with if all u wanna do is sit back and chillax. got to say the road was not always smooth for us but we're made it for four years and i daresay many more years to come. introduced me to the art of online shopping tho she has to take the cake as the online shopping queen of all times. ann is a huge contributor to all our outings as she brings kelini (her car) that has angkuted all of us to so many different places al these years. the only euro-asian person i knw and prolly will only knw that can understand and even attempts to speak in tamil and watches tamil movies, and goes gaga over indian actors! an avid animal lover and always trying to show me the cuteness of cats which i still DONT see :p hugs for always planning trips that have turned out to be memorable for all of us.
* KohilaH Sivasamy*
the most outspoken and straight-forward of the lot! thanks for making me see that it's ok to speak ur mind and be honest about wht u want n dont. my dancing partner in the short-term contemporary lessons and also in performing in sarees :)i was always getting mistaken for being her during foundation and its a compliment coz the women is a hottie :)she's always striked me as being strong and levelheaded; two terms that i don't completey identify with which i knw is crucial to me now and in the future. hugs for being yourself all thruout and being true.
* Devanand Raj*
the clown! he comes up with so many craetive names for ann that more often than not annoys her and their antics are so funny that u cant help but l.o.l! has been accepted as one of our GFS!!!! and knows boutgirls-stuff as much as us coz....well he din have a choice, we made him listen :p hugs for always making really good jokes and making us lauff.
...these six were the major reason i survived college and had lotsa fun while at it. while our lives take us on different paths, our memories together wud be etched forever on....well, FAcebook for one :p and in my heart and mind :)
here's a long over-due
THANK YOU! =)
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